Iterative Poetry from the Pacific

‘Iterative Poetry’ is a method for creating short descriptive poems, using imagery generated in a longer set of writings.  In the first ‘iteration’, I created a long poem through freewriting.  Then, reading back through the poem, I selected the most meaningful portions (using six highlighter colors).  For the second iteration, I re-combined the selected portions into a series of new, shorter poems.  For the final iteration, I selected the best of the shorter poems from the preceding series.  The philosophy of this method is based in chaos theory, specifically ‘self-similarity’, which is a frequently occurring natural pattern.  The inspiration for these particular poems stems from my trip across the Pacific with the Sea Education Association.

A blue snail

Rides the ancient grey humps

Delivering thunderclaps

 

The morning extends for miles

Brimming with stars

Beyond the belly of the squares’l

 

Sea ends,

Delivering blows at its borders

Unprotected and vulnerable

 

Sailor’s ghosts

Accept offerings or injustices

In the sky at morning

 

life

lost in darkness

Under mercury reflections

 

Flickers of green

Amid monstrous caps

Pelted with rain

 

Dark, hungry mountains

Filled with jellyfish

A fireball lights the Pacific sky


“Legends of Earth” continued

Whipping over the turquoise foliage, the heavy mats weighed the Eulos down on their return journey.  Periodically, they were forced to stop and make landings in the tops of the trees, to avoid crash-landing into the canopy.  During one of these stops, Arla noticed Ratil peering at something over her shoulder.

“Is that a pulse trail?” Arla peered behind her, shading her eyes against the glare of their small sun.  There did appear to be a second, smaller source of light behind the sun – a trail of light, broken by periodic flashes.  Now, the whole group had turned, and was peering towards the sky.

“Looks that way,” remarked Tamarang, a hint of concern in his voice.  A pulse trail presumably meant a large spaceship, propelling itself forward with periodic explosions of nuclear fission.  The trail was probably several million kilometers away, however it seemed to be pointed in their direction.  Peering closer, Arla noticed a slight bluish tint to the light.  Thorium… she thought.

The others had noticed it too.  “Maybe we should leave the mats here,” remarked Parrok.  There was no need for further discussion.  The group dropped their mats in the canopy, and bent their knees, launching upward into the sky.  As Arla flew, she looked over her shoulder.  The period between the flashes seemed to have decreased since she had first taken notice – this was another sign that the ship might be decelerating towards them.

The distance to the metallic sleeping discs had not been much further, and without the extra weight of the mats, it did not take long to cover the remaining distance.  When they appeared through the foliage, it became apparent that others had noticed the pulse trail as well.  Thirty or so Eulos were gathered at the center of the discs, and were having a hurried conversation.  Arla and the others made deft landings along the rim, their wings shrinking back into vein-tattooed patterns along their sides as they strode towards the center.

A woman named Bena was speaking:

“We analyzed their spectrum – significant traces of thorium.”

“Raiders?” Asked Lana.  The word sent a ripple of fear through the assembled Eulos.

“Possibly – it could be from one of the asteroid mining tribes.  There’s plenty of thorium in the Lasset sector.  I know the Ares did some trading with them a while back, and I think thorium was part of the bundle.”  Miners could also be notorious raiders, Arla knew, because mining colonies often failed abruptly due to the difficulty of creating a stable microbiosphere in space.  If a mining colony lost control of the symbioses needed to sustain life, the colony could collapse in a period of days, leaving only the miners themselves, along with their ships.

Arla looked upwards again.  Yes, the pulses were definitely coming more quickly now.  She thought she could just make out the donut-shape, where tons of metal were crashing through the center of a nuclear inferno every few seconds.  They must have created some form of inertia control to cope with the deceleration, or they would be plastered along the inside of that thing.

Samana spoke first.  “I need five with me to go to the core!”  Marthos and Tamarang, along with three others immediately moved towards her, and in an instant the group had dived over the edge of the sleeping pod, rushing downward into the abyss between the tree trunks.  Other task groups self-assembled, and sped off in different directions.  Arla, Ratil, and Thale looked at eachother, each having a similar thought.  Ratil said, “Forest floor?” and the other two nodded.

Leaping off the side of the disc, the three sped through the thick upper leaves of the canopy, breaking through after a few moments to a more open space where the deeply grooved trunks of the trees plunged downwards.  As they descended, the space opened up.  Weaving around sets of stray branches, interspersed tangled root masses appeared below them, above a floor covered in drifts of turquoise leaves.  A carpet of vaporous, lightly glowing dust drifted over everything, and ashen-colored trails crisscrossed in between the roots.  They landed gracefully, wings buzzing as they checked their speed.

Stepping lightly over the twining roots, they moved a few feet apart, scanning cracks and depressions.  After a few moments, a flicker of movement caught Arla’s eye.  Something grey was clambering slowly over a drift of vibrant leaf debris.  Its appearance was something like a jellyfish – a cap, standing elevated on an array of long filaments.  From the cap drifted clouds of the glowing dust.

The tendrils moved over the forest floor, creeping inside crevices in the tree bark, or snaking through the undergrowth.  Where a tendril passed over fallen leaves, the leaves turned an ashen color and began to crumble.  The tracks were everywhere along the forest floor, and in the distance more shapes were moving indistinctly.

“Over here!” Arla spoke in a sharp whisper.  Thale, who was closest to the thing, stepped carefully along the side of a curving root, approaching it from above.  Ratil tossed him a small container, and he bent down.  Brushing his hand into a crevice of the tree, his hand came away sticky with sap.  He reached towards the cap, which stopped moving.  A bundle of tendrils stretched out to meet him, encasing his hand, and swarming over the sap.  As he pulled his hand away, the tendrils stayed with his hand, and he was able to collect them in the container.

“Thank you,” he said to the creature.  It was a sentient fungus, designed to regulate cycles at this level of the forest.  Creating sentient beings to manage cycles in this way had proven more effective than relegating the task to a mechanical computer, however the beings required a certain level of reciprocity as a result.  The cap rippled orange in recognition, then continued on its way.

At this moment, the light disappeared from the sky, making Arla’s breath catch in her throat.

“That’ll be Samana,” said Thale.  The sun had vanished, blanketed in a reflective field that mimicked the background radiation of space.  In the sky above the comet, a similar field created the impression of a fluid surface, rippling and distorting the stars.  Both the sun and the comet would now be invisible from the outside, the fields blocking both visible light, and a variety of other types of radiation that might be picked up by sensors.

This meant Samana and her team had located the icy tunnels that lead to the comet’s center, winding their way inwards to find a small control station near the core.  From here, they could control the comet’s few mechanical systems.  These mostly consisted of functional components like the condensers.  As far as Arla knew, the shield generator was the only high-tech mechanical artifact they possessed – again, a gift of goodwill from a neighboring tribe.

The light at the base of the trees was murky.  Small patches of starlight filtered through the leaves and the swirling shield, but mostly the ground was lit by the glowing dust around their feet.  Working quickly, Arla, Ratil and Thale located a few more of the sentient fungi, and soon they were carrying several containers each, in sacks Ratil had grabbed as they dove over the edge.

Abruptly, dragonfly-wings thrummed overhead.  Parrock and several others appeared, also with a sacks over their shoulders.  Seeing them, he dove down and landed beneath a mound of matted roots.  The others landed around them.

“They’re holding course,” said Parrock breathlessly.  “And still headed straight for us.  We think they might have taken a fix on our position before the shields went up.”  Blip…blip…blip The flashes in the sky had grown brighter now as well, strobing down through the trees.

***

Left arm eight points.  Elevate forward-speaking elements of the nine breezes.  The creature wakes.  Emergent light creates conditions for self-similar negative spaces. Within sorrow exists the particulate expansion of mighty empires.  All praise the device.  The core has acquiesced to 73%.

Kara awoke to find herself staring out a small window, at a slowly-moving arena of lights, against blackness.

Thirty-eight points correct out of the left arm.  Sequence 722-38-49-6627-6.

She lifted her left arm, her hand flicking unconsciously towards a panel, where her fingers executed a complex movement.  She blinked.  In her mind’s eye, an image flickered into being:  human shapes, smooth and reflective as mirrors, clambering over a fissured landscape.  Jagged, darkened rocks.  Flames hurtling from a broiling sky.

Openly, the gifted presence seeks renewal.  Discover the shape of exceptional destiny.  Cranium 97 degrees, sixty-eight points spread over the left hemisphere, distribute blades.

***

The two groups on the forest floor took off.  Speeding through the comet’s understory and into the canopy, they landed in branches, just below the uppermost foliage.  The flashes, Arla noticed, had ceased.  Instead a long, clean streak was visible, and she thought she could make out a darker shape, riding the column.  Suddenly the sky erupted in an explosion of light.  Concentric ripples passed along the surface of the field above the comet, shattering the effect of the mirage.  The shield was likely absorbing some kind of impact, and the ripples were white-hot, radiating energy.


“Visioning Sustainable Futures”

During Spring quarter last year at Fairhaven College of Interdisciplinary Studies, I took part in a class taught by the professor Gary Bornzin, called “Visioning Sustainable Futures”. The class was open-ended and exploratory, encouraging each student to experiment with their favorite ideas. The eventual goal was for each student to create their own vision of a personal ‘utopia’. As the students developed their visions, a collaborative ‘class vision’ slowly began to emerge. Many of the ideas and insights of the students were collected on a class blog, and I was able to collect the posts and organize them into a new blog, so that our vision could be made public. The link below contains the postings of the students – this is our collaborative class vision!!

*As a helpful tip, clicking on the different “Categories” is helpful for navigation.

http://visioningsustainablefutures.wordpress.com/


Rhythms of Kathmandu

There is a rhythm that lives in my bones.  This is not a metaphor – each time I’ve returned to South Asia throughout my life, there is a structure that makes itself known in my movements, in my reflexes, in the electric or neural network spreading throughout my limbs.  Walking a crowded street, my eyes unfocus, and my peripheral vision takes over.  My reflexes change, and I become more physically aware.   I find that I flow between the people surrounding me, settling into a full-bodied kinesthetic amble that utilizes an internal sense of center and balance, as well as an awareness of the intuitive reflexes of my gut.

I first experienced South Asia through the window of a Delhi taxicab, at age two.  I’ve been told that this coincided roughly with a period of my life where I subsisted on a sparse diet of rasins and milk, momentarily worrying my parents.  In my own head, this has always been because of an attempt to process – any time I’ve found myself in a new place throughout my life, I seem to go through a period of distraction, or assessment of my surroundings before becoming fully engaged.  The moment passed however, and I went on to experience life in India through the eyes of an American-born preschooler.

Looking back, I can sense the Rhythm settling itself in; I can distinguish the moments that seem to be characterized by it.  For the most part, they are jarring and intrusive:  attacks on my senses that force me to react.  This is life – sink or swim, fight or flight, dance or die!  My father’s Enfield motorcycle wove me to school every morning through a press of cars and animals, and the smell of petrol has always paradoxically reminded me of the safety of that small space on the front of the motorcycle.  During Diwali, the Hindu festival of light, the streets became a veritable war zone of handmade fireworks, cracking and rattling all night long.  We choked on the smell of gunpowder for days, and avoided the roof of our apartment for fear of sparks and errant rockets.

Another moment that seems to capture the rhythm occurred later, when my family rode a train south to Madras.  I remember passing green fields and red dust, at one point the hood of a cobra poking above a field of amaranth or corn.  The floor of the train moved through space like something aerodynamic, its floor pitching like the deck of a ship.  Once again the word “kinesthetic” comes to mind.

The rhythm I received from my time in India is similar to the rhythm I received from Nepal.  The two share many of the same structures, however Nepal’s rhythm is smoother, less jarring.  Nepal is the place where I learned to Walk during a petrol crisis, where I wore holes in my tennis shoes on the red brick walkways around Kathmandu, and the cobbled roads near Marpha or Sagarmatha.

Of course the States has a rhythm too, one that I’ve found not unlike the rhythms of classical music:  a blunt and uncompromising four-four without India’s syncopations, polyrhythms, and unexpected timpani.  In contrast it is from my time in South Asia, I believe, that my interest in music stems.  The story that follows describes my experience of Kathmandu, through the lens of music.

***

During my gap year after high school, I made weekly trips to my guitar teacher’s flat in Lazimpat, outside downtown Kathmandu.  The house was a half-hour walk behind the palace along a crumbling red walkway, where bamboo stems overhung the brick of the palace wall, throwing leaf-shadows into the potholes around which I stepped.  Vehicles coughed and sputtered as they swung around the solitary policeman standing by a black and white striped concrete block – sub-atomic particles, veering around a blue-suited and gesticulating nucleus.  Past the Bluebird department store and the Summit Hotel, I would watch jalebis sizzling in woks full of oil and syrup, or become a target for English Practice after crossing the path of an aspiring Nepali academic.  Striding up the road I passed the gaping concrete doorway where children clutched cheap pink plastic toys, the fortress-like American embassy, and finally Raju’s squeaky green metal door; and then I would be inside practicing scales, learning the ins and outs of his home recording software.

I also took lessons at the Kathmandu Jazz conservatory, twenty minutes from my family’s home in Ekantakuna.  The conservatory was run by Mariano Abello, an eccentric and avant-garde Spaniard who was sometimes to be seen throwing blazing performances with his sax at Upstairs Jazz.  To get to the conservatory, I would walk through bright brick alleyways strewn with eucalyptus leaves, and eventually pass through the green metal gate and up two flights of concrete stairs in a rarely-inhabited high school, emerging into surreally peaceful white-painted rooms where the lessons were taking place.  The rumbles and honks of the city floated sheepishly in through an open window, a discouraged melody drifting up from Kathmandu’s Ring Road below.  It was there that I finally found a space to play guitar and sing with other travelers – Videshis, as they are called in Kathmandu.

My voice teacher Patrick was a spiritual wanderer who has since been in the Carribbean, Curacao, and Hawaii, among other places.  Long and thin, he would take to the streets at a great pace wearing a light, black leather jacket and a scarf.  Patrick was peaceful, and possessed of an inner ridiculousness and ease of laughter that leant a radiance to our lessons.  My image of him is perpetually of his jaw hanging open, eyes rolled back in his head, neck wagging as he grasped wild high notes, at the edge of his range.

Also at the school were my other voice teacher Gary, and a woman slightly older than me, Rachel.  Both were excellent singers, and along with Patrick we found a number of opportunities to create concerts, singing acapella at the Jewish school, and performing at Lincoln school, my old middle school.  This second concert came as something of a surprise – I didn’t actually realize where we were performing until the last moment, and after middle school I hadn’t really expected ever to come back. Lincoln School was home to many of my most potent insecurities, and the few times I had been back that year, I found myself avoiding the eyes of old friends.  At one point during middle school, I had leapt without a plan to the outside of a third floor balcony, to be pulled back by my English teacher Viva Bell, shaking like a leaf.

Standing on a stage on the basketball court with Patrick and Gary and Rachel, we sang Let it be through microphones to the echoing courtyard.  A guitar provided accompaniment, and a drummer created rhythm in the background.  The crowd was unresponsive, though I did recognize a few faces.

Patrick never constructed the choir he had envisioned, however we had some memorable opportunities for rehearsal, and we made good music.  Sitting in a smoky living room with friends of his, we worked out the melody for Killing me Softly, and harmonized ‘till my vocal cords stung.  The night before my flight to Denver, Gary and Rachel and I sat together on a balcony, talking and looking out over the city.

During middle school, groups from Lincoln School would travel to the Hyatt Hotel, or gather at Phora Durbar and the Lincoln school gym – formally dressed, and swaying awkwardly to international pop music.  I would happily ask Suzanna, or Farah, or Kirsten for a dance, feeling relatively at ease here.  Despite its probable inadvisability, I often followed the lead of Andy Ridgeway, Andrew and Lyle, the ‘skateboarders’ of the school.  Farah, I remember, at one point asked if she could punch me in the stomach.  I proudly replied in affirmative, and quickly found myself hunched over, wheezing “I’m ok, really, I’m ok”…

“You weren’t supposed to say yes,” she responded, nonplussed.

Years later, with Gary and Patrick and Rachel, we traveled to Pashupatinath, the religious center of Kathmandu where many Hindu spiritualists and ascetics lived.  In a wide brick pavilion beneath a peepul tree, unearthly scales issued from a bamboo flute, a tabla resonated, there was a sky full of stars. Nearby on a hill, Sadhu burial sites vied for space with the outward-marching city.

In the streets, life continued.  Midway through the year there were petrol riots, at one point there was a bombing.  Kathmandu is a city that may or may not continue to exist after the next major Himalayan earthquake, and Nepal as a whole has been described with complete justification as potentially the world’s “next Haiti.”  Bare-ribbed dogs bay through the night.

At the museum in Patan, scales howled from the fretboard of an electric guitar, a group from the British School, sitting in the front row, sang their sympathy to the night.  Peter Rowan and Anne Choying, a few years earlier, had played Land of the Navajo in the same spot.  I remember a concert from the group Thievery Corporation, which had a drifting reggae beat shot through with strings and percussion, and an Eastern twist.

In still spaces near Patan Durbar square, the pounding of small hammers onto bronze statues yields a sound like the pattering of metallic rain.  In the many small buildings crowding around the Boudhanath Buddhist stupa, the Tibetan community throws flour on holy days, and lights a small conflagration of flickering butter lamps.  Flowing through Pulchowk and Chakkupat, teetering forward on bicycles or three-to-a-motorcycle, ducking through passageways between sagging brick walls in Patan, the people of Kathmandu move like interweaving notes flowing from the fusion of a tabla and a bamboo flute.


Mathematics in Nature


You tree, flows the forest.

The spreading node of cycle flow

The penetrable fissure’s reaching nexus.

Harmonics Resonate.

***

yellow spider,

how do your thin legs

stay warm?

***

Rough pores

Through the bark

The tree is breathing

***

Warm space

Between the splinters

A great violence

***

Quiet space

Beneath tree’s limbs

A home for moss

***

Triangle shapes

Defiant

Withstand snow’s violence

***

Cracked tree bleeds

In the cold

From a house of threads

***

The tree is a node of the forest web

Older deep resonances are passing through

 

Organisms flow through thrumming bark

Forest substance from the permeable fissured heartbeat

 

Cycles spread through interconnected harmonic bodies.

Nexus of the creviced sea.


Namche Bazaar

1/31/06

Namche Bazaar

            I can picture myself now, at the end of hours of exertion, the red rasping dust infused in my skin, my clothing and my breath.  Ahead of me lies the glimmering city, the final savasana.  I pass through musty raven towns, past the ribs of broken wicker baskets.  All at once I am there, passing between the bright shops over hard rounded cobblestones.  All around me the dark greens, yellows, reds and blues of garments and elaborate tapestries glow subtly behind the shimmering lights leaping off of countless daggers, statues, and Buddhist prayer wheels.  The air is alive with a musty mixture of woody incense and dust from ancient carpets.  Out of the shops smile old, cracked, and venerable faces, speaking in voices of quiet shale.  Dreadlocked yaks, announced by clanking bells and draped in fragrant, dusty blankets drunkenly meander the path, unaware of their surroundings and occasionally led by young, dusty men in pale shirts wearing flip-flops.

Soon I come to the hotel, and climb the stairs into a new ply board world gazing out the frigid, chipped window left loosely in the wooden frame from the warm depths of a purple sleeping bag.  Over the back of a cheap novel, my gaze travels where I wish to.  It passes through the thin glass, out over the confusion of the village, where again my senses are struck by the faint whiff of incense, the soft, deep color and the softly scraping voices, and over the calm terraced fields, which are dotted green, white and brown by snow, vegetation and earth.  My gaze drifts higher and floats across the fields until they drop away into the sheer gaping valley in which can be heard the pounding of water upon stone as though the river were not of water but of millions of panes of glass, shattering and fusing together again in an endless cycle of noise.

            Soon the river vanishes and my gaze climbs higher and higher across steep slopes heavy with trees and boulders until even the sound drifts away and I am surrounded in icy silence.  Impossibly high in the frigid air the trees disappear and their spiky topography is replaced by a smooth and unending blanket of snow.  The snow reaches higher, clinging with desperate fingertips as the rock underneath it grows steeper.  Finally the snow looses the battle against gravity and steepness and the rock throws off its icy covering to rise and touch the sky.  My gaze intensifies as I yearn to be where only it can go.  I long to stand on the barren rock in the freezing, silent, peaceful air.  But soon my fantasy fades to patience, and my gaze returns to the book; to a blank fiction that cannot compete with vibrant reality.  Still, the book, the warmth and the view are enough, combining to provide true rest after miles of climbing along dusty red trails.


Sci-Fi concept “Legends of Earth”

If, during the year 4,283 AD, you were to look through a powerful telescope pointed in the direction of the asteroid belt, you would notice something strange.  Some of the bright pinpoints of light, which you might have thought at first were stars, are moving, orbiting in a circle, in line with the belt.  If your telescope happened to have a particularly fine focus, you might notice other signs of activity – objects moving in patterns not typically associated with asteroids, objects with strange shapes or colors, emitting signals that to an astronomer would seem stranger still.

Of course, you wouldn’t be standing on the surface of the Earth looking through a telescope, because to stand on the surface of the Earth in those days was to risk death in all manner of horrible, uncomfortable ways.  If you didn’t asphyxiate (say you had a spacesuit), get caught in a river of molten plastic and organic chemicals, or run afoul of an irradiated dust storm, there were the meteors, the lightning, and oh yes, the predatory land-squids.  4,283 was a particularly bad year for the squids.  The Earth’s surface in those days was a wasteland of broken rock and magma.  You might be in Earth’s orbit, however even this is unlikely due to a dangerous jumble of debris, circling at high speed, colliding with itself, and bombarding the planet.  More likely, your telescope is located within the asteroid belt itself, looking inward at an array of strange objects, the dispersed dwelling places of the survivors of humanity.

Focusing on one particular object, a medium-sized sphere with a turquoise hue, in a binary orbit with what looks like a small sun, you might notice a slight shifting pattern on the surface.  Focusing still further, depending on how your telescope is constructed, you might just be able to make out the shapes of leaves, apparently blowing in the wind.  Now, very few telescopes are capable of this kind of refinement, but if you could look even closer, you would notice a human-like creature, a female, with turquoise skin and a strange pattern along her back and sides, sitting in the boughs of a tree.

***

Arla sat on a tree limb, and watched the sun sinking past the top of the canopy, the color of the sky deepening.  It wasn’t the sun, of course, but a much smaller, closer sphere of reacting material the Ares tribe had helped them cobble together.  Straightening her back, and stretching tired muscles, she stood, placing her bare feet against skin-like silver bark.  Leaning forward slightly, she bent her legs, and pushed off.  Moving straight outward along the tree limb, she passed a fractal spread of branches, culminating in a fan of turquoise leaves.  Grabbing a branch, she altered her trajectory, spinning off at an angle to slip between a series of massive trunks.

Making her way through the forest, she altered her course several times, rebounding off the trunks of trees, or catching air in the flaps that protruded from her back to change direction.  She moved at considerable speed through the shafts of light that slanted through the canopy, losing themselves in the darkness below.  Passing through a screen of leaves, Arla emerged into a sizable clearing, where a number of angular disc-shaped metallic objects hovered.  Coming to rest at the rim of one of the discs, she proceeded towards its center, where a congregation of turquoise-skinned individuals was waiting.

“About time!” one of them called – a smaller one, with a pattern of diamonds tattooed behind his ears.  “What do you expect?” Arla replied, “I’m not a robot – after a day like that I have to sit for a moment and watch the sunset!”  The smaller one, whose name was Thale, proceeded to remind her that it was not, in fact, a sun, but had been lent to them, as a gift of goodwill, by the Ares tribe.  Arla sighed – she wished that, for a moment, Thale could forget the practical realities of their situation, and simply appreciate a sunset.  The sky was still a mandarin hue, and the leaves at the forest’s edge were a shifting tapestry beyond the soft yellow of the sleeping pod’s rim.

“Where were you all day?”  Arla asked Thale, anchoring herself into a couched depression with one arm.  “I took a trip around the dark side,” he replied.  “I was helping Marthos deal with the frost problem.”  Frost, drifting up from the icy comet beneath the tree’s roots, had been collecting in the forest canopy, preventing the trees from photosynthesizing.  “There’s a slight temperature imbalance we think, but hopefully it’s not too bad.  We should be able to just place some condensers over there to fix it, but hopefully that works, or we might have to adjust the whole rotation cycle.”

A basket of fruit was passed in Arla’s direction, and she took one, settling deeper into the depression and letting herself relax.  Arla and Thale sat for a moment, chewing on the fruit, and letting the blood flow back through their limbs as the sky darkened, the fading ‘sun’ reflecting off a halo of dust, beyond which the stars were starting to appear.

***

At the same time – or, as close to ‘simultaneously’ as you can get in a spaceship hurtling at relativistic speeds somewhere along Neptune’s orbit, a man named Jobe was settling into his bunk.  Listening to the creaking of metal, and the slight whistle of a pipe somewhere aft, Jobe pulled off his gloves, swung up his legs, and began drifting off nearly the moment he was horizontal.  Sixty-eight thousand, seven hundred twenty three hours, fifty two minutes, seven seconds, read the clock behind his head.  His dreams were troubled.

***

The next day, Arla awoke to a shade of bright green – the Lichens were out.  Floating in the atmosphere of the comet, tiny clusters of cells tended to collect in the air, drifting in light clouds, the blackness of space visible behind them.  It was these clouds that the humanoids (their tribe’s name was Eulos) tended, and harvested as a primary food source.

Flipping out of her depression onto the roof of the disc, Arla walked to where the Eulos were gathering, at the top of the dome.  She seated herself in a ring with the others, and they all began a brief chanting ritual to synchronize themselves to one another.  The harvesting dance required precise coordination – the ritual was not simply a tradition, it was a necessity.

As one, still clutching hands, the Eulos bent their knees, and shot into the sky.  The fractal patterns of veins along each of their sides pulsed, and shook outward into dragonfly-like wings, inflating as they spread.  The light gravity of the comet allowed the group to gain considerable height, simply using the muscles of their legs – they rose to a point where the curve of the comet was visible, just below the green clouds, then broke formation, gliding outwards from the circle.

The wings themselves were phenomenal organs.  In appearance similar to dragonfly wings, they were composed of a mat of veins and capillaries, capped on top by a translucent layer of skin.  At a young age, the Eulos taught their children to channel body heat through the wings:  radiated downwards, the heat provided a lift that was just able to counteract the comet’s light gravity.  The practice, though physically draining, allowed the Eulos to glide for long periods of time above the comet’s surface.  The wings also contained a variety of ultra-sensitive pigments, that captured energy from the ‘sun’, and from the vacuum of space.

Speeding outwards, the Eulos turned in unison, and glided into a circle around the cloud.  Several at a time would dart towards the center, and brake suddenly by straightening their wings with a cracking sound.  The force of the wingbeats threw the lichen-cells (a symbiotic mix of algae and fungi) together.  The force of the wingbeats compacted the cells, causing them to stick to one another and fall downwards. At this moment, another Eulos would make a swoop downwards, carrying a mat made from fibers of the huge trees that circled the comet.  The mats would catch the falling lichen, to be rolled up and stored under an arm.

***

The ice of Europa groans and twists above a dark sea.  Plunge beneath the ice, and there is a dark ocean of swirling liquid.  Down, down into the crushing depths, and eventually you reach the planet’s core – a dense landscape of congealed iron and rock.  Protruding from one of the deepsea ridges, there are sets of blocky, fractal structures, that protrude into the ocean like tumorous growths.

If human eyes could see beneath the murky depths of Europa, this is what the City of the Mala would look like.  From the outside they are geometric latticeworks composed of stone or another mineral.  They arc and branch, forming cavernous spaces outside which the water extends into blackness.

Within gaps in the latticework, movement is visible:  many small creatures are swimming, climbing, or crawling in the interstices of the structure.  Closer in, carved from the bedrock of the deep-sea ridges, there are protruding structures with dark windows and cave like interiors.  From one of these structures, a formation of swimming creatures is emerging.

The creatures are long, clothed in a slip of scales.  The upper portions of their body are humanoid, with powerfully-built arms.  Their eyes are black, and large, composed entirely of pupil, and the lower halves of their bodies culminate in a fish-like tail.

Emanating from the group is a sound like whale song, a rich chorus of underwater vibrations.  They approach the outer edge of the latticework, and their song goes silent.  Together, they dart through holes in the latticework, making their way along its edge, sometimes inside the space, sometimes just outside.

They approach a group of schooling fish, or another type of organism, balled together just outside the wall of the latticework.  Weaving between the openings, they assemble inside.

Abruptly, a storm of clicks and whistles rings out, and the Mala dart into the open, circling around the outside of the smaller creatures, and pinning them against the latticework.  In turns, the Mala dart inwards at the school.  Cracks of light flash from their fingertips, and individuals from the school float upwards, stunned, to be picked from the water by quick hands.

At a shrill cry, the Mala scatter.  A dark shape has appeared in the background, its outline gradually resolving in the distance.

***

The sound of beeping jarred Jobe from his sleep.  Rolling out of his hammock, he placed his feet on the floor, and padded barefoot up the steel walkway that lead to a small control room.  A light was flashing on the control panel – he jabbed at a button with his finger, and the beeping ceased, but his brow remained furrowed.  Peering out into the darkness through the large window in front of him, he stared for a time, seemingly searching for something.  The darkness stared back inscrutably, and so Jobe irritably poked a few more buttons, and then turned and headed back to his bunk.

***

Pulsing through the blackness of space, just outside the orbit of Venus, a shape is lurking.  Behind it trails a beam of light, miles long.  Light and energy from the nearby sun glints off chinks and protrusions that break the regularity of its slowly rotating carapace.  Light, and particulate matter are radiating from it in a halo, giving it the appearance of a green-tinted comet.

***

Crouching in the protection of a stone crevice, one of the scaled humanoids shoots a wide-pupiled glance at his counterpart.  This humanoid’s name is Ttraktk, which in Europan translates to something like “Kevin”.  “Kevin’s” counterpart’s name is Tnkotro, which translates as “Daniel”.

The two are watching as a darker shape draws closer, approaching from the open space beyond the Mala latticework.

The shape, as it rises from the depths, reveals itself to be huge, flat with a curved upper side.  The creature is lopsided – all along one rim, a single bony fin is rippling in the water, and a huge set of eyes stares upwards from what must be the head.  A rustle sweeps through the Mala behind their latticework, but none of them move.

As the creature rises, it approaches the remaining bundle of smaller fish, still pinned against the wall, that the Mala had been hunting.  Abruptly its mouth opens, and set of teeth flashes outwards, connected to a muscular, extendable jaw.  Several of the smaller fish vanish in a cloud of scales.  A second snap from the leaping jaws clips the latticework, which crumbles in a shower of stone and sparks, leaving behind a tangle of wires.

The Mala homes are built using a form of accretion technology, which runs energy through wires to create a reaction with elements in the water.  The latticeworks are essentially limestone, and the energy running through the wires has also stimulated the growth organisms not unlike coral polyps:  these imported like seeds in packets from Earth’s oceans long ago, genetically modified to survive in Europa’s oceans.  The surface of the structure is complex, and life of all sizes flows through the many crevices.

Immediately a whale-like war cry issues from the humanoids hiding in the stone, their voices resonating together as they flash from the structure.  Avoiding the creature’s jaws, they harass it from above and below, again throwing bright flashes of light from their fingertips – perhaps electricity generated from an internal field.

The creature thrashes, then flips around and vanishes into the darkness.

***

Arla brushed aside a wisp of floating Lichens, whipping past another Eulos flying in the other direction.  From somewhere behind the cloud, a voice rang out:  “Ratil, look out on your six!”  Ratil, carrying a large mat, had swooped downwards to catch a clump of falling lichen.  As she returned, swooping upwards, she was simultaneously rolling up the mat – her head was down, and she about to collide with another Eulos, who had just turned towards the center.

Looking up, Arla saw the two twist to avoid one another, their wingtips brushing.  The other Eulos, whose name was Tamarang, let out a huge laugh.  “Close one!” flying at the edge of the comet’s increased gravity, damaging their wings at this height could be fatal, sending them spinning off into space.

Dipping below the cloud, Arla locked eyes with three other Eulos, who had done the same thing.  Lana was right ahead of her, Thale and Samana on either side in her peripheral vision.  The four held this state for a moment, taking eachother in as they sped towards one another, then simultaneously flipping upwards into the cloud.

Immediately, Arla’s vision is obscured in a green haze.  The Lichens rush past her as she continues forward, sensing, rather than seeing, the three others speeding towards her through the fog.  Tilting her wings slightly, she throws her body forward, rotating it vertically as she approaches the center point.  Throwing her wings outward, they sweep through the thick cells with a crack.  Crack crack crack – the wingbeats are in unison, and groups of cells are thrown together as the shapes of the other Eulos abruptly become visible.  Several large clumps fall downwards, to be caught below.

Flipping backwards, the four turn over in midair, and glide outward like the spokes of a wheel.  As Arla reaches the edge of the cloud, she sees Ratil, Tamarang, and two others dipping below to repeat the process.  In nearby clouds, other groups are circling.  After several hours, the group has collected a large supply, dropping the rolled-up mats onto the canopy of the trees for later transportation.

Picking up two mats each, the eight Eulos glide in formation back in the direction of the sleeping pods.


Gokyo Ri

***Written 2/9/05, feeling very exultant about my climb***

“Wake up, Allen,” muttered the voice in my head through blankets of sleep.  Then more clearly, a trickle of ice piercing into my warm bliss:

“Allen, its time to go.  If you want to climb, you have to get up.”  The layers slowly peeled away from my mind until finally I uncovered my eyes and blinked at the blue circle of light through the doorway.  The cold air assaulted my face, dragging my unwilling mind into groggy alertness.  The sliver of light vanished and I fumbled for a flashlight, momentarily exposing my shoulder and arm to the frigid night.

Finally my fingers closed around a headlight and I was momentarily blinded as I turned it on facing the wrong direction.  As the blue spots faded from my eyelids, I struggled within my sleeping bag to pull on clothes.  Finally successful, I stumbled through the hall to the lodge to have a hasty breakfast of tsampa porridge with brown sugar.  Fifteen minutes later, we were stepping out of the brightly lit doorway and out under the snowy stars.

In front of me the headlamp beam carved a blue circle into the night as we passed over rough, uneven rocks, then a flowing, glittering, nearly invisible river in the night, and finally began to climb up a rapidly-steepening slope.  We hiked for some time under the softly glowing stars, our breath and footfalls quiet and insignificant, lost to the endless crisp darkness.  Then, as a greenish glow began to outline the black jagged peaks, the moon rose, lifting its pale head into the sky and coating the path in silver.  We turned off our headlamps as the green began to grow, to spread, and to change color until the black silhouettes of the mountains blazed with spectral flames.

Eventually the white disc of the sun appeared and the air began to grow hot, making our breath rasp and our limbs burn.  The blue shining tin roofs and black stone walls of the village below us slowly shrank, and then vanished from sight, obscured by what was the curve of the mountain, but seemed to be the curve of the world.  The air began to thin, and we gasped like fish out of water, our lungs scrabbling at the air but not seeming to draw anything from it.  Our limbs grew steadily heavier and weaker, as though with each step we took, a small fishing weight was added to a chain around our ankles.  I sat for a moment, drawing deep, shuddering breaths, as the rest of the group waited for me impatiently.  The exertion, embarrassment and uncomfortability of the hike seemed momentarily too high of a price to pay merely for the small gratification of the view.   Eventually I took the weight back onto my shaking legs and continued to haul my seemingly dead weight up the slope.

Above us the end of the steep horizon seemed always to be only a few hundred meters away, but continually receded, tantalizing, into a new slope.  Gradually the rocks under foot became larger, sharper, and we were no longer stepping over them but onto them.  Then another horizon appeared, sharp and rock lined, drawing closer instead of receding.  Slowly we neared it, and a splash of red appeared at its top, followed by green, blue, white, yellow.  The strong color awakened strength within me, my limbs seemed no longer weak, and I felt, as though I had willed it, energy flowing like a river of fire back through my legs.

After what seemed only minutes, the flame of color on the ridge lay in front of us.  They were Buddhist prayer flags, their sharp color glimmer-edged in diamonds of ice, marking the summit of Gokyo Ri.  I stood and turned in a circle, my gaze drinking in the towering spears of black rock and blue ice all three hundred and sixty degrees around me.  I breathed the mountains, their strength filling my lungs and spreading fire through my body.  With that strength in my veins I heard the rocks speak their challenge to me.  My heart pounded in my ears and I knew that some day I would face that challenge and overcome it…all for a view.


A different take on the Glen Canyon story

***The original Glen Canyon story is “Dwelling Place in the Sky”.  When I began that story I intended it to be much longer, however I didn’t have enough time to spend writing it.  Instead I wrote this shorter story stemming from the same vision.  ‘Glen’ is a reference to Glen Canyon (on the Colorado River), which was dammed in 1966 and is now Lake Powell.  Sarah Moench, my grandmother, was among 300 or so people known to have visited the canyon before it was dammed.***

THERE WAS A TIME BEFORE TIME WAS.  NOW TIME IS, AND IT IS TIME TO SPEAK.  I AM DEATH, AND I MUST SPEAK BEFORE I DIE.

I WAS ALL PLACES AND NONE.  I USED TO TRAVEL THROUGH THE FOLDS OF BLACK TIME AND SPACE, SEARCHING TO FIND AND TO CULL THE LOOSE SPIRITS WITHOUT BODIES.  MY SCYTHE WAS SHARP AND DEADLY, PARTING THE EARTH FROM THE MIND, THE FLESH FROM THE THOUGHT.  BUT THAT WAS BEFORE.

AT A TORN PLACE IN THE TIME OF THE WORLD, I WAS BITTEN BY A SPIDER.  HE WAS NIETHER BODY OR MIND, TIME OR SPACE, HUMAN OR OTHER.  HE SAT ON A WEB OF CONSCIOUSNESS TO SNARE ME IN THOUGHT’S SILKEN STRANDS.  HIS NAME WAS GLEN.

***

Glen lived at the place where the sun met the rock.  It was also the place where the rock met the water.  It was a place of high walls and unexpected colors, a place baked by the sun and frozen by the night and by the river.  It was a place of extremes.

To the tourists he was something of a legend, a rumor heard from a friend of a friend – left out of the guidebooks for fear of ridicule.  To the park rangers, the locals, the tour guides, he was something else – perhaps a man, perhaps something more.  They had seen him with their own eyes, striding or climbing high on the slickrock, his long white beard blowing behind him – an apparition half clothed and purposeful.

Only two people in the world had ever seen his sleeping place – a hollow carved by an ancient river in the days before humans, cushioned and insulated by deer skin and hand-picked cotton.  One was Glen himself, and the other was an old man named Bernard.  Bernard had been an explorer in his younger days, boating, climbing and hiking along the canyon until it was more of a companion than a wilderness.  He spent his time now as a park manager, balding and tired, living as close as possible to the land that he loved.

One evening he had seen a patch of white hair through a grove of trees before a slot canyon, and he had followed it.  Following the glimpse of a heel or a flash of white, he wound along the sandy floor between two towering walls of curved and buttressed stone.  Then the walls became too narrow, the slot continuing on unreachably into the darkness.  So he walked back a way and found a set of age worn finger and toe holds carved in the rock.  He climbed until the holes ended and he reached a ridge.  Standing, he saw the old man like a mirage sitting against the wall of the canyon in front of his small cave, a fire crackling at his outstretched feet.  Glen made no acknowledgement of Bernard’s presence, so the one left the other in peace, and Bernard returned down the staircase without a word.  Walking again along the sandy bottom of the slot, he realized that the only footprints were his own.

***

Glen had lived in the canyon for a long time.  He had come there as a young man – a young human, it might be speculated – when the dirt of the city, or the clutter of its people had become too much to bear.  Perhaps they had thought him crazy, and he’d been brought to a large building with all-too-friendly caretakers in white coats.  Perhaps he’d been out of work, or there had been a woman who didn’t feel the same way.  Or perhaps it had been nothing.  He chose not to remember, and he knew it didn’t matter.

Because here he was.

But he knew something the tourists didn’t, although old Bernard might have.  He knew that his hold on the world was slipping.  He knew that whatever thing it was that still held him to the ground – that made the bark of the trees smooth or the ridges of rock sharp – it was dying.

So he did the things he always did – he strode along the cliffs to feel his limbs working under him.  He ate – not much these days, often merely the leaf of a tree or  a sun-warmed pebble.  He watched his fire burn away next to him high on his ridge, fueled no longer by sticks but by the dust of his humanity – hovering like a star on the horizon.  He slept.  He dreamed.

And one night, his dream was different, and he knew he must take a journey.  That day, he walked for the last time in the canyon.  He felt the stones with his fingers and drank the cool water.  As he walked, he searched, looking under the roots of trees or high on the canyon walls.  As the sun climbed in the sky, he searched.  As the sun hovered at its apex and began to fall, he searched.  And finally he found what he was looking for:  a small pool about two feet across set into the sandstone beneath a beam of sunlight.  He sat for a moment in contemplation of the pool, then picked from its depths a small round rock.  The rock was sun-baked, a luminescent orange, shiny and deep and smooth from water.  He took the rock and crushed it in the light filtering past the canyon’s walls.  He poured the dust into a small pouch, and mixed it to a paste with the sparkling water from the pool.

That evening he did not light a fire, but instead sat smoking his old stone pipe, watching as the colors deepened in the sky.  As the sun touched the horizon, he laid down his pipe and stood.  Turning his back to the spectacle, he walked away from the place where he slept, and climbed down his wall.  At the bottom of the slot he strode for the last time as the purple rays dipped.  He strode until he came to the place where the walls were un-passable, and he stopped.  He stood for a moment, looked to where the last sliver of the sun was visible, then slipped through the crack.

***

            Beyond the crack, there was no sky.  The floor dropped away, and the rocks changed.  Where the rocks in the canyon had taken their form from the water and the red light, these rocks took their form in darkness and from something else, perhaps flesh.  They twisted grotesquely and seemed contorted, building into steep spires and strange elbows – slick and warm, alternately leathery and soft.

Glen wound his way deeper into the stone, clambering nimbly over and through crooked structures of rock, slipping through small holes and tunnels like a draft of air, climbing without pause down deep shafts, their sides running with icy water.  All the while the darkness was complete, the sounds of his passing mistakable for the drip and flow of streams or the tapping of small rocks.

Then, Glen reached a Cavern.  He knew he had passed something of a threshold because here again, the rock was different.  It kept the solidity of darkness, as well as the warmth of flesh – but added to this were certain crystalline qualities.  Feathery accumulations of Silence hung from the ceiling, in places soft to the touch, in places pointed and untouchable.  And in some places, the rock held Time – its edges hard and sharp and clear, growing from the walls like frost in rigid geometries, monolithical.  Here, Glen stopped.  He stood in the Cavern, amidst the rocks of Darkness and Flesh and Silence and Time.

And he drew out his pouch.  Opening it, he dipped his fingers into the paste at the bottom and he began to paint.  He painted stories –the story of the river and the tree, stories of the deer, the wind, the grass.  There can be no telling for how long Glen painted, but paint he did.  In the cavern, deep in the earth, brushing crystals of Time from his shoulders as they grew, he painted the story of the world in the colors of the sun and the water and the rock.  And as he painted, the light began to grow.

The light spread from his fingertips, from his pouch, from the pictures on the wall.  It grew and grew, spreading outwards like fire, eddying across the dark stone to swirl down carved riverways and to illuminate deep cracks.  The light grew until the crystals rang with it, throwing it and bending it, spreading it from one to another, angry or gleeful or something else entirely.

Finally, Glen stopped painting.  He turned and was met by the reflected light of the story of humanity, emanating from deep within the crystals.  They glistened there like fresh fallen snow, twinkling.  They might have been reproachful, grateful, thoughtful – there was no way to know.

But at that moment, Glen felt the last of that thing which held him to the earth leaving.  He felt his life force being pulled away into the crystals – swallowed into Time and Silence.  It was pulling away unavoidably to be caught like a beam of light in the prism of the crystals.  So he followed it.  He plunged his form into the rocks of Time, and began the final stage of his journey.

He Strode.  He passed through glittering obscurities of light, frightening abstractions – fractured walls and glassy mirrors.  But he kept going.  He had lost most of his body, feeling now little but the floor that was no longer a floor against his feet and the slap of the pouch at his belt, strangely heavy and simultaneously weightless, its contents seemingly undiminished despite his painting.

Abruptly, he emerged at the point where Time ceased to be solid, melting and flowing over white sands of death.   He stepped unexpectedly out of Time and into the dark Night.  Time tugged at his heels, rustling past him into the infinite, dark horizon.

YOU HAVE COME.  Glen turned to see the hunched specter of Death, darkly floating beyond the river of Time – a figure in dark robes, bony fingers wrapped around a scythe.

I KNEW YOU WOULD COME, BUT I CANNONT MOVE PAST THIS POINT – THE FUTURE IS BLANK.  Glen heard the words, but did not speak.  Instead he drew out his pouch.

THE WORLD OF LIFE AND BEAUTY HAS NO PLACE HERE – THIS IS THE LAND OF DEATH.  Glen dipped his fingers into the pouch, and began to paint.  He painted a river.

THE ONLY RIVER IS THAT OF TIME.  ALL OTHER RIVERS ARE LESSER.  He painted a tree.

THE LAND OF THE DEAD IS NO PLACE FOR COLOR.  He painted a person.

HUMANS COME HERE ONLY WHEN THOUGHT IS SPENT AND MIND IS WASTED.  He painted a sun in the head of the person.  And from the sun, a spark of light began, and it grew and washed over the river and the specter, who stopped.  Glen approached the specter of death, and lifted his cowl to see cold eyes staring from the sockets of a skull.  Glen looked into those eyes, and holding Death’s gaze, he dipped a finger into his pouch and painted a long red streak onto the skull.  Instantly, Death shrank in the glow and came to rest in the river.  Death had been made human, and began to be swept away in the rush of time about his feet.  Glen, on the other hand, began to float away – out of the river and into the starry black sky.

***

            FLOATING IN THE RIVER OF TIME, I FELT THE FIRST EMOTIONS OF MY HUMANITY.  I AM MORTAL, AND NOW I MUST DIE.  GLEN NOW WAITS ABOVE THE RIVER OF TIME IN MY PLACE, AND I AM LEFT TO TREAD THE MORTAL WORLD IN HIS STEAD.  I WILL PACE THE SHADOWS OF THE WORLD LOOKING FOR ITS BEAUTY – INVISIBLE, ETHEREAL – UNTIL I DIE.


Solitude

Solitude

I walk alone, leaving the irrational, complicated world humans inhabit to bicker behind me.  Its sounds fade into the quiet wind that causes the golden grassy sea to come alive, rippling across the land under the cloud-shadows with a sound like light rain on a lake.  My tread is steady, my feet make nearly inaudible rustlings against the long stalks that lie like hair around my feet.  The plain stretches out around me to a horizon fringed with green, then slopes upwards into a sharp rocky point under a marine sky with clouds like floating river rock under-lit by deep and profound afternoon light.   The earth and the sky seem to be wrapped around the point, as though the point is the center of the universe and of the being of the land.

As I walk, my paces in rhythm with the blood in my veins and the breath in my lungs, I feel the thought in the land.  The land knows of my presence, and I know of its power and its wisdom.  I am alone only in that there are no people near me.  I feel the presence of the land.  I am a microbe, aware of the omniscient eye, with the certain knowledge of only two things:  the presence of the eye and my own infinite inferiority.  I am aware of everything all at once, the soft rasping of the grass, the earthy smell and slight chill of the cool wind that brushes over and around my body, the intermingling colors of the clouds, the sky, the grass, the trees and the rock.  I float in a state of absolute ecstasy and awareness impossible in the human world, until gradually the sound of conversation returns behind me and the eye is gone.


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